change...

There has been so much change going on. I hate the word 'change' now that Obama was overused it. Its lost its meaning. But anyways, I was running today and thinking about everything in my life that I didn't expect to be change over time, and yet it has. People come and go, values shaken, jobs aren't stable. The world changes. People change. I've changed. But God never does. He remains the same no matter how far we run, when we forget what we stand for. He is always right there, where He has always been. I normally don't like change, it scares me. Because with change, I may fail at the new adventure and I don't know what to expect. However, I am learning to embrace each new improvement or degradation as a way to grow. Its not always fun. It can be draining and stressful, but in the end the 'change' is positive. Its all about how you see it.

What are the things in your life, that you didn't expect them to change? What was your reaction?

Life like ocean waves, come and go as it pleases.

Never exactly the same way, but it is consistent.

Don't let your life wash away. Learn from each wave.

We are like leaves on a tree.

We grow and take shape.

Change colors with different seasons.

And when it is our time, the wind blows us into eternity.


So I found out that my mental health teacher from this semester unexpectedly passed away this weekend. She was 51. Life is short, you never know when the winds will blow.

The college called me a few weeks ago and asked me to teach this guide study gig, I meet with the teacher, make a lesson plan, and then work with the beginning nursing students. Should be interesting, at least it will keep the info fresh. I just have to balance my time, between working about 30-40 hrs at work, school, and now the new job. And trying to have a life. Thankfully the weather is starting to warm up again, gonna start running this week again, I miss it.

I am so thankful for the new opportunities that God has given me and I am excited about the future.

All you need is love..

I enjoy listening to Missy Higgins' music. One day while I was listening to her and other similar artists on Pandora (which I also like) I realized that all these songs were about love. Some kind of search for love. Songs about being in love, songs about finding love, songs about losing love. Love. Love. Love. And then I realized everyone is seeking some illusive form of love. When all they need is LOVE that has been waiting for them to receive it. I mean, I too, have been caught up in this game, when I should be focused on God's love. It was kinda depressing. All these people have been blinded, and inspiring other people to be blinded too.
I was blind, but now I see.

So wake up and see that Someone wants to show you real love. It can never be lost, won, or bought. Stop focusing on yourself. Love God. Songs of His perfect love with flow from your heart in sweet melody. Everyone has experienced that feeling of excitement, when butterflies rise in your stomach, when all you think about is that person. When you long to spend time and learn more about the other. Do you feel that way about God? When you hear His name, does it make you happy? Love is not just a feeling, it is choice. Sometimes it comes quietly, sometimes you have to fight for it. So what in your life do you love? What shouldn't you love? What you are fighting for?

"Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart, and with ALL your soul, and with ALL your mind, and with ALL strength." Mark 12:30

this moment

What I have learned about love

It is not some fiery display of passion and lust.
It is that exchanged moment when two souls unite.
When you look into their eyes, and you see your other half.
And from that moment, you can't exist without the other.
Never unequally dependent, but rather two lives travelling in one movement.
That is when true love starts.


I am not idlely waiting for you. Each step I moves me closer to you. My soul waiting for that moment to love you.

Whose eyes are you looking into? Your soulmate or your distraction?

A letter...

Dear world,
Its about time I tell you this. You can’t fool me anymore. I was blind and naïve, I didn’t realize you were subtly cutting off pieces of me. As if trying to change me from a square peg to fit into your round black hole of ideals. I gave you little pieces of me, to make you happy; but it left me hurt and misshaped. I thought that is what I wanted, but now I realize that isn't me. You can’t change me, God made me this way. All your ploys that make that round black hole appealing won’t work on me. What you offer is not what I want. I have all I need. Please take your fake ideals somewhere else. Goodbye.

Sincerely,
Katie

Be Pretty

Be Pretty

Each new season of life, brings change and new growth.

New flowers and fruit produced by your actions.

Sometimes, they are beautiful creations, and other you may want to hide.

Stop and take a look at the garden. Your life. What do you see?

Beauty, light, joy, love or dark tangled vines taking over, blocking out light?

Let God be your gardener, weed out the negative things in your life.

Make room for Him, let Him create a masterpiece. You.

Life goes on...

I have been so busy lately, haven't had time to post anything...

I was scrolling through my itunes yesterday and came across Jeremy Camp. I haven't listened to him in forever. As I was listening to the CD and doing my devos. This song struck my heart.

My desire.

You want to be real, you want to be empty inside

You want to be someone laying down your pride

You want to be someone someday

Then lay it all down before the king

You want to be whole, you want to have purpose inside

You want to have virtue and purify your mind

You want to be set free today

Then lay it all down before the King

This is my desire, this is my return

This is my desire to be used by You

You want to be real, you want to be emptied inside

And I know my heart is to feel You near

And I know my life

It's to do Your will

It's to do Your will

This is my desire, this is my return

This is my desire, to be used by You

This is my desire, this is my desire

To be used by You

All my life I have seen

Where You've taken me

Beyond all I have hoped

And there's more left unseen

There's not much I can do to repay all You've done

So I give my hands to use

This is my desire, this is my return

This is my desire, to be used by You

This is my desire, this is my desire

To be used by You

Read through it, I know it seems long, but really read it. Is that your desire? Deep down inside? Is that what you crave more than anything in the world? I want to do God's will. I want to be used by Him. I've seen God's faithfulness in the past, but there is so much more yet to come. I want to be used for His glory, to spread His love. I have been set free to do His Will. It's more than just wanting something. It needs to be the very breath you breathe. Something you can't live without.

I don't want to go casually in life, I will live in the moment. I will be used by God. I look forward to the future. As unknown and uncertain as it may be. I pray it is more than all I have hoped for.

Be used too. You won't regret it.