Its been awhile

Have you ever had that moment, when you stop to think "what the heck am I doing???" You know, when you were young and dreamt of such wild aspirations, and then decades later look back and realize you are no closer at reaching those goals than you were when you were dreaming of them. But I realized the only person holding you back is yourself. Because, if you really want something you try and sacrifice until you get it. Its my dream, not anyone else, why should someone else be accountable to help me reach it. What is holding so many people back. Is it the fear of failing, a lack of confidence in self. Or perhaps, do we find comfort in unhappiness/incompleteness, because we are so used to it, that its scary to try something different. It's easier to say "if only" than to do say "i did it" because we don't have to give up anything. Well I had that moment today and it stopped me. I am the only one holding myself back, I refuse to blame anyone else, and I will take responsibility for myself. I won't tell you what my dream is now, because one day it won't be a dream, it will be my life.