something new

I retired my journal today. The pages filled. I fell in love in this book, and lost it amongst its pages. It was a journey of my last three years. Hundreds of words have followed these changes. I have laughed and cried throughout the sheets of paper. It is time to close that chapter of my life. Replaced the worn and broken bound book with a new untainted one. This leather case shall carry on another legacy in my mind. Filled with thoughts and words. Poems and songs. Time will tell the words embracing these sheets. This is my life. This is my book. For no one but myself.

change...

There has been so much change going on. I hate the word 'change' now that Obama was overused it. Its lost its meaning. But anyways, I was running today and thinking about everything in my life that I didn't expect to be change over time, and yet it has. People come and go, values shaken, jobs aren't stable. The world changes. People change. I've changed. But God never does. He remains the same no matter how far we run, when we forget what we stand for. He is always right there, where He has always been. I normally don't like change, it scares me. Because with change, I may fail at the new adventure and I don't know what to expect. However, I am learning to embrace each new improvement or degradation as a way to grow. Its not always fun. It can be draining and stressful, but in the end the 'change' is positive. Its all about how you see it.

What are the things in your life, that you didn't expect them to change? What was your reaction?

Life like ocean waves, come and go as it pleases.

Never exactly the same way, but it is consistent.

Don't let your life wash away. Learn from each wave.

We are like leaves on a tree.

We grow and take shape.

Change colors with different seasons.

And when it is our time, the wind blows us into eternity.


So I found out that my mental health teacher from this semester unexpectedly passed away this weekend. She was 51. Life is short, you never know when the winds will blow.

The college called me a few weeks ago and asked me to teach this guide study gig, I meet with the teacher, make a lesson plan, and then work with the beginning nursing students. Should be interesting, at least it will keep the info fresh. I just have to balance my time, between working about 30-40 hrs at work, school, and now the new job. And trying to have a life. Thankfully the weather is starting to warm up again, gonna start running this week again, I miss it.

I am so thankful for the new opportunities that God has given me and I am excited about the future.

All you need is love..

I enjoy listening to Missy Higgins' music. One day while I was listening to her and other similar artists on Pandora (which I also like) I realized that all these songs were about love. Some kind of search for love. Songs about being in love, songs about finding love, songs about losing love. Love. Love. Love. And then I realized everyone is seeking some illusive form of love. When all they need is LOVE that has been waiting for them to receive it. I mean, I too, have been caught up in this game, when I should be focused on God's love. It was kinda depressing. All these people have been blinded, and inspiring other people to be blinded too.
I was blind, but now I see.

So wake up and see that Someone wants to show you real love. It can never be lost, won, or bought. Stop focusing on yourself. Love God. Songs of His perfect love with flow from your heart in sweet melody. Everyone has experienced that feeling of excitement, when butterflies rise in your stomach, when all you think about is that person. When you long to spend time and learn more about the other. Do you feel that way about God? When you hear His name, does it make you happy? Love is not just a feeling, it is choice. Sometimes it comes quietly, sometimes you have to fight for it. So what in your life do you love? What shouldn't you love? What you are fighting for?

"Love the Lord your God with ALL your heart, and with ALL your soul, and with ALL your mind, and with ALL strength." Mark 12:30